its sexy time . . . .

Let's get one thing straight I don't even recall the last time I actually felt sexy. With all the fertility many several Drs. and Nurses that have seen my privies in the past 3 years its a wonder I even can feel sexual in that area at all. How many probes and duckbills and surgical instruments and dyes can one girl have inserted in her before a penis is just another instrument as well. In the past 3 years my husbands penis has gone from a thing of pleasure to an instrument of use to acheive our NON success at baby making. I long for the days of when we first started going out and couldnt keep our hands of each other and would frolic and play between the sheets like two sex crazed teenagers now sadly its more of a chore and has lost its allure. I pee on a stick once a month till those two lines show I'm ovulating and say hun tonight is SEXY TIME and he says ok like as if two EEYORE's are talking to each other. Don't get me wrong I love to make love to my husband but boy do I look forward to when I can ravage him again with out wondering in the back on my mind "hmmmm what if, maybe this month". Those thoughts are just so annoying and restraining and suffocating.  For now this is the hill were climbing  but when were finally on the other side THIS JILL IS GONNA THROW JACK DOWN and tumble like nobodys buisness. <3 mucho amor <3 (ya happy you bitch)