We're boring . . . .

Now I know it's probably far fetched and not even accurately portrayed; the biker club in SOA. However the show has sparked something in me. The need and desire of excitement. The fun of spontaneity. The sex that blows your mind. The desire to be sexy. I use to love to be a glorified cock tease. To throw my skirt up and show my ass a bit. To slut out a bit. Now I'm too lazy to even wear jeans half the time. I asked nick what I could do to make him throw me on a table or fuck me in a bathroom and he said you know I'm not like that. It's true he's not I think sometimes a bit of our problem is the difference in the way we like to have sex. I use to be nuts, hang from chandeliers, swallow cum, 69, give lap dances to my boyfriends or even get fingered in a movie theatre. Now I'm boring and not content with the shape my body is in. I have lost touch with the desire to be desired. Sons of Anarchy is reminding me of that want to be wanted. Stupid I know that a show on tv is causing me to have these thoughts but hey it was in there already and just needed something to light the fuse. I'm joining the gym and getting sexy for no one but myself and when I feel sexy myself everything else will fall into place. Screw it if nick doesn't want to take charge I'll just throw his giant ass on a table and tell him to fuck me he way I want to be actually no THE WAY I DESERVE to be fucked. <3 vulgar <3

Oooo baby baby . . . .


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