Scheduled periods . . . .

I can't just tell my body to get my period as nice as that would be. After winning the contest and needing all the preliminary tests and clearance before I can start a new cycle also mixed with my doctor going on a two week vacation didn't leave me much time. I was going to try to fit my cycle in this month but I needed clearance for the hep and my kidneys. I also needed a water sono which I was suppose to do tomorrow. However with that it now pushed my cycle to December but the embryology lab closes for two weeks in December. Rather than bum rush a cycle I worked my ass off to get and worried I wasn't going to be able to make the December 31st expiration of the contest I asked Bina and the girls in group what I should do. Unanimously they all emailed me back DO NOT RUSH ! We had group last night where luckily lindsey the finance rep and one of the best people at the facility was there taking our suggestions as to how to make east coast fertility a better place. She was the person in charge of the contest and one of my major supports on the inside said to me after I spoke to her about dilemma. " It was my contest and I say you can do it when ever you want ". Elated I felt very relieved. Bina texted me today to tell me it was def ok to do it when I felt I'm ready and I am now going to be ringing in the new year with an IVF. <3 relieved <3
PS I had the worst panic attack I've had in like 6 years last night after waking up to have to go to the bathroom. I guess I wasn't fully awake and I got so freaked out I screamed for nick and he held me till it subsided. Luckily that was much quicker than back in the day because of the Zoloft. I watched tv till I got tired again then fell back to sleep. It was horrible tho I felt so out of body and scared. Nick sprang right to my aid and I thanked him all day for that. I love my hubby <3


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