a more hospitable environment . . . .

So yesterday I did it I took my first ZOLOFT pill. I cried because I was scared and nervous but if this is suppose to help me deal with this issue I'm going thru right now and make my womb a more hospitable environment then I suppose I should give it a shot. Ive been in infertitilty group therapy for a year now and we meet every Wednesday. My therapist suggested I perhaps try this because of my conversations I have in group about stress and my pain I deal with on a daily basis about my mom. Bina (thats my therapist) thinks that the post traumatic stress I have from not only losing my mom but actually physically witnessing her die in front of me has affected every cell in my body and that a stress reducer may help while Im under another physically and emotionally taxing time in my life. I also have developed a pretty decent obsessive compulsive disorder thru this due to the lack of me being able to control the situation I actually want to control. It has gotten to a poing where it interfers with my day to day living. Nick said he thinks that its time for me to take something because he feels bad when he sees me get actually physically stuck in my rituals I have to perform just to get thru my day. Some days he doesnt empathize tho and we fight about it. I developed the OCD after my mom died and it was a little intense then. It went away for a few years and then came back full throttle when I went thru my divorse. It went away again and then came back the worst Ive ever had it during this issue with infertility and has been intensified since my last two IVF failures more so the second one. I also get PPMD high intense SUPER BITCH MODE pms and it should calm that down too. Im not gonna lie Im still anxious about it and skeptical but if it does help Ill be relieved to have less stress. <3 roaaaar <3